C.S Entertainment Project Karokee project

Tim was in the way again which he changed his mind on the cameras..

This is no problem...

I was thinking of getting him all new 55 dollar camera which will work great..
So, I can put these outside and also put this under the desk. I will use the ones outside shooting across because that doesn't matter..

Just use the best..

330..00
do your best..


Just give him the best..
Yes, that is the goal...

Lily email: She said her mother Didn't want the system.

Well, The issue is that her mom wants audio on the unit. I can do this but I have to take a risk. Well, I will do it..

This unit will cost me $250.000
I will not charge lilly for this device.. I wish it didnt' cost so much. the device I have doesn't even work...

Lets do our best..

I am really happy that she is alive and well.

I will do my best..

C.S Entertainment Project Karokee dealer

I meet Tim about two months ago.
He wanted a DVR system which I gave him a price of $2.980.00
Well, He tried to use this price for 12 cams and the dvr. I had to tell him that I need to charge labor and stuff like that..

He is really annoying sometimes because as your working, he tries to add stuff..
The first day of work. I was having a hard time because every dame five minutes he wante to add this and that.. This was real bullshit, because, I wasn't able to focus on the job...

I told him to please let me first finish our agreement and then I will focus on the extra.

I should have stopped him earlier because, I wasted more time answering his questions as I was doing the job..


Start date: September 26, 2005

10 :am - 4:pm

I installed five cameras which I was really tired because I didn't have any sleep the day before...

September 27, 2005

Installed five camera locations with wire and everything..
I will be returning the outiside cameras which he wants a housing style..

I plan to have everything ready today..


September 28, 2005

10 am till 3 am Finish all cameras...

L.A. Downtown Tokyo Need hair cut.

Go, home and check Lilys recorder and try out test on the device..

Thursday, fix Lillys system..
Install DVR at C.S entertainment...


This project is looking good... I have jr. after this project..

I just emailed Lily telling how I feel. It was great.

I emailed Lily today telling her that I always wondered about her. I am really happy to know that she is alive and well. Yes, this has been the greatest reliefe.
For the longest time, I would wonder what happen to her or if that person or that person was her... She was like a ghost that finally showed herself.
I understand she had a hard time but also the pressure from her Sister also was an issue.
I remember yolanda when I was in high school, she was much more talkative, but she could say hello and stuff. It's really hard taking care of an ill person.. Yes, I have been there myself...
The main issue is that she is alive and well and that is all that I wanted to know..

She is my first puppy love... How can you forgett that?

I know for ten years my acne was the biggest issue, but again I just threw myself into work. I have to slow down... Every sunday, I do nothing but read, but sometimes I would like to go out and stuff... Well, Yes that is true...

I really want more purpose to life, I really would like to go back to the medical field and train as an EMT. I remember when I was transfered to the E.R. Admitting dept because of my computer skills. But, the EMT always had the action. Yes, I worked double shifts but I would do it for three days and the EMT guys would do it for a week. I still remember the great feeling that I did my best for society...Yes, this was what I looked fowared to each day...

Yes, I work for myself but sometimes where is the purpose? The person who I work for either gets a good price, but I have realized when I need something they will help me out. It's a give and take situation... This is business..

Remember Machavali:
In business you must be first to try something new because everyone else will hate you because they are comfortable with the old and true... Yes, I have realized when a new product comes out, I will try it and sometimes it doesn't work. but, the issue is that I tried.
Presently, I tried the NetGear Router which has been good, but then I realized it was slow. Well, I have learned and I realized that is why I got a discount on the price...
Yes, also realized that when it comes to the customer always give him the best price and only what he needs. Everything else can be added later.
I have bought stuff that customers haven't even used or don't want to use.. So, the best is to create a skeleton system and if they want more they will ask.
Yes, because once they determine what they want they will ask..
You, can't just force customers to buy this or that. You have to watch and understand how they will use their equipment, remember customer is always king...

I still can't sleep..

I have realized that this technical stuff is great but sometimes when I am all finished. What do I do? I really need to be more social.
I really can't believe that I was to busy to see Lilly... Why did you do that? I really tried to not get to connected.. I am still insecure... Yes, but again she is just a friend...

Lets grow up will you..

Grow up...

Well, knowing that she is alive and well makes me happy...
I worried for the longest time wondering where she went or if she was alive... All this time she was living in Downey, now that was interesting...

Well, I would like to be a good friend again and respect her marriage... Yes this is the best solution..

I am really happy..

I still have that Banana tree in the front of the house which the reason I planted it was because of Lily. Since, Costa rica and south america they eat bananas... I thought it would represent her. It was funny that once she emailed me and talked to her. I reallized that the Bannana tree finally gave a couple of bannana...

MY front yard garden is interesting because I have plants from everyone I know. Since Sensei Shoji passed on, I have his Hawainn plant...

The garden and the plants represent each person..

Interesting insight...

This song expresses my true feelings.... I will Survive!

I Will Survive Lyrics
by Gloria Gaynor[ Download Gloria Gaynor Ringtones ] [ Send to a friend ]

First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me

New notebook to collect info.

New notbook. Well, since they ran out of my favorite scatch pad, I had to find something. Well, this notebook looks o.k. It has lines, but again lets try it. I have realzied that these notebooks are great which I write something down and I always have it. I have also realzied that emails are the same gig and this new web blog works good. the only issue is having your info when you need it. I have realized that you can't always find a computer connection. The goal is that if you have some ideas write them down. I can always go to my email. I have also realized not to depend to much on the emails because if the info is gone it's gone.. I have written stuff down which is great and I also understand how things work.

Today, I will need to review some stuff on networking which I really want to specialize in Linksys routers only. Yes, lets only do them and that is it. Once, you understand how this thing works you can expand to others stuf....

The goal is to understand and I have a network at home which I can practice sending info back and forth. Yes, I am ready now..

Lets go..

Finally letting the pass go..

I have come to realize that she needed a camera system to help her sister and this was great. I helped her and it's my way of saying thank you for everything.
I have finally let go of the past. I have also accepted that I am not the greatest looking guy which I always knew. This was the big issue that I always got what I wanted when I was a kid. It didn't matter, but made time to figure things out, but in the long run I would get what I wanted. but, when it comes to make somone love you, you can't do that.
I am really glad for my parents who also saw me falling for her which they would pick me up as if she was some danger to me. Well, you have realized that if you would have married young you would be really have probelems today. Yes, I know I couldn't read that good because of delexa which is the same thing that tom cruz has. It was what made the e and the i flip on me when I read. I have now accepted it and I am a much better person today.

I really think I have grown this past week because now my expectations are over and reality is much better to deal with. Yes, I had no expectations when I meet her and that was good... I finally realized she is to tall for me and she is to good for me. I can't have someone like that , she would drive me crazy. Yes, I have accepted and moved on..

Life is great now. I can see again....
Life is clear.

Lily is doing good. I finally am free of worrying about her.

I just meet lily Saturday.
She is still as beutiful as I remember, she hasn't changed a bit. I remember her eyes which are just like Pilys. I realized that she looks exactly like Pily,but she never really was Lilly.
Pily is a great freind but because of her depression which really became more serious we seperated in 1998 on because she wanted to seperate. Yes, I know, I spend time with her when she need someone to talk to, but I realized that I will never marry her because she is really doing bad. I have accepted her depression and I don't blame her. She is really nice..
I finally meet Lily, this is great for me because now I don't have to worry about her or where is she or what is she doing. I remember when her brother told me don't worry about her she is gone. I really didn't realize that she left the whole area. The main issue that I stopped hanging out with Eric was because I didn't want to get stoned anymore and also the only reason I hung around those assholes because I wanted to talk to lily.
The more pain that I felt eric would give me more pot, cocaine or what ever.. I wish, I could have just walked across the street and told her. I really want to be your friend again and I wil quite this stuff.
I quite 1984 all Drugs including alchol. Yes, I have been much better and life today is great...

I will always love you Lilly you were my first puppy love...

Thank God, that I enrolled in endochronilogy which I found out that what I was feeling back then was my hormones were being over active and endorphine levels where high. This is all the puppy love syndorme. Well, thank God I understand it today..

I always thought if I was with her I would be the happiest guy in the world, will I have always been happy which I realized she had alot of issuess..

She is a good person and I will always remember her as Lily...

I love you Lily.....

Pily emailed me again today, I set up a date for tomorrow morning at Frisco's...

It's been a great week. I have these expectations but again you can't always say things will turn out good.
The main issue is just be yourself and that is all I can do.
but, again, I just want to know her as a friend. Isn't that how all this starts? Yes, that is true. the main issue is just get to know her again and if I can help, help..

I think Mom and Dad are getting ready to retire which I will take care of them. I can't live at home for ever.... Shit, it's time for me to move on.

I have learned alot and I am pretty secure now which I have finished my schooling and now I am basically reading alot of books on my own time... Yes, this is the main issue...

I am now at a state of that I can take on new stuff and now, I know how to find answers. I do need to belong to club which I can ask questions and get answers... yes, this is the only way you really learn.... Just do your best... That is the main issue... Just learn how things work and try them..

My linksys router works great which I have been able to down load info and communicate with the computer... Yes, this is great, but I still want to learn more..

I need a vacum and a roto zip with the battery charger.. yes, this would complete my kit..

Remember you left your dewalt on bruon's roof and you also need Jr. to return your batter and charger.. You need to make sure you get your tools back... yes, because that is what helps me make money...

Well, lets just start learning how these things work...


I really want to read more about math... Lets finish all my math... yes, I will see how far i have gone.. yes, because I really want to finish that up.. I understand xyz cordinates whch in the past was the biggest mystery..


I finally made it but it's always improving and getting better....


I really like this lap top which I would like to get one of these, but a small one..

yes,, if I can do work out of the office that would be great...

September 1, 2005 Pily emails me again and I email her back..

It's such a great day for me. I really don't know what to say, but be happy.. What is this thing we call happiness? The only reason that I am happy is that I heard from an old love which is about 23 years ago. This reminds me of a time when I was young and dumb and full of c....
Well, I really don't know what to feel.... It's a great feeling, so enjoy it while it last...

I was thinking of Pily today which you have to remember I thought pily was Lilly..
Pily makes me sick... She makes me more sick when I spend time with her.... I really don't know what to think.... The issue is who do you love?
Now, this is the great delision that which she emailed and said hello then all my problems go away? No! they don't..

Everything is still the same , nothing has changed it's just a state of mind...

True happiness is being happy with yourself. Yes, I have found this out a long time ago. Thanks to Sensei Shoji...

I have also learned this through my zen studies and have become a better person today.. Yes, this has been my goal..

I own nothing and I posses nothing and thinks come and go..

It's only when you try to control you drive yourself nuts...

I guess, I am much more mature today to meet pily. But, if we do, I come from a place of Security and truth.. I can see through this past illusion..

A. don't jump in to rescue or give money..
B. Remember she was only a friend which she never gave a rat ass about you.
c. Also remember that you have found true happiness in pily and other friends you have come to know...
I can't lose all my values for an illusion that is twentthree years old...
The past is the past....

You must move on and accept things..

O.k. once you get pass all this bullshit, you can be a friend and that is all.

Say, hello, great to see you and that is all..

Don't step into or offer stuff you can't provide... Just be a friend...

I still love my pily and my asian friends which I will not lose all this on a illusion...
I have come to realize how illusions can lead our minds to wander, but realize what is true...

Truth is my only friend...

Dr. V
Fear is a cowards excuse and a wise mans councel...

If, you have fear which you do, you can realize you have a wise mans councel and always be open to the truth...

Thank you Mom And Dad for teaching me the truth....

Lies are illusions that can trap us...

Thannks Again....

Frank Martinez