Lily is doing good. I finally am free of worrying about her.

I just meet lily Saturday.
She is still as beutiful as I remember, she hasn't changed a bit. I remember her eyes which are just like Pilys. I realized that she looks exactly like Pily,but she never really was Lilly.
Pily is a great freind but because of her depression which really became more serious we seperated in 1998 on because she wanted to seperate. Yes, I know, I spend time with her when she need someone to talk to, but I realized that I will never marry her because she is really doing bad. I have accepted her depression and I don't blame her. She is really nice..
I finally meet Lily, this is great for me because now I don't have to worry about her or where is she or what is she doing. I remember when her brother told me don't worry about her she is gone. I really didn't realize that she left the whole area. The main issue that I stopped hanging out with Eric was because I didn't want to get stoned anymore and also the only reason I hung around those assholes because I wanted to talk to lily.
The more pain that I felt eric would give me more pot, cocaine or what ever.. I wish, I could have just walked across the street and told her. I really want to be your friend again and I wil quite this stuff.
I quite 1984 all Drugs including alchol. Yes, I have been much better and life today is great...

I will always love you Lilly you were my first puppy love...

Thank God, that I enrolled in endochronilogy which I found out that what I was feeling back then was my hormones were being over active and endorphine levels where high. This is all the puppy love syndorme. Well, thank God I understand it today..

I always thought if I was with her I would be the happiest guy in the world, will I have always been happy which I realized she had alot of issuess..

She is a good person and I will always remember her as Lily...

I love you Lily.....