I helped Lily with the Camera and gave her my Year book 1983

I meet with Lily yesterday which we meet at her parents house.

The issue was that the mic wasn't picking up really good, but her Dad just needed to practice using the system one more time. I walked through the system with him which he now has a good insight. Yes, this was the goal for him to understand how it works.. I also told him that sometimes the system goes to 6 hrs which you need to put it at 30 hrs which you can hear live audio. Yes, this has been the goal and everything is working really good..

I gave Lily my year book which I know I wrote in it. Yes, it is funny but I didn't write nothing around her. Well, I am glad about that, but you have to remember that she was just a friend. I also her talk about zipper who she was all exited, you have to remember I wasn't her only boyfriend, she had many more options... Yes, that is good. I felt kinda bad, but I realized I can't do anything about that.. Yes, I have realize I am just me and that is all. Yes, I can't change who I am but just learn to live with myself. Well, if she said her little sister liked him then she was seeing him. I have no control over nothing you know that...

Yes, that is true, I have finally learned to let go... I have also accepted who she is and now, I know who she is.. She is happy and she is strong. Now isn't that what you always wanted to know? Yes, that is all I wanted to know.. Well, we are friends today, but not that much of good friends.....Life is great...

The truth is much better living in then living with wishful thinking...

I have learned that I have lived a lie which I thought she was the greatest thing in the world which when I finally seen her, I realized wait, she has vains and her face look so fake that she can't smile because she forced herself not to smile. Yes, I almost forgota about her modeling which I didn't really care about... Yes, this was something else...

Well, it's great having her friendship...


I have no control over anything...

I really don't need her, but I do want her....

So, now I realized even if I needed her, I am still the same which I am free finally after all these years.. Yes, I am finally free...

I want her is better because now you don't make her conditional to live on...


Yes, my life is great today because I know her again...



Lets move on...