I have no need for lily now that I know she is a ho..

She said that she traveled through out the u.s. Now, she also said she stayed at home and never worked.. Well, this explains that she never likes to work. This is what she always wants to stay at home and she is looking for that. I think she was thinking that I could offer that to her. Shit, If I had money. I wouldn't do it. I still wouldn't do it. I finally figured her out. she is always looking for the next best thing..
She had all this time to see me, but she never did and I also didn't..

I guess things move and change.. I have totally changed..

The lunch date was bad that I wanted to pay and I didn't have enough money. I relaly should have had more money.. Yes, but next time get a credit card.. Yes, that would be best... I can't believe you Frank...

Well, she should now that I am no high roller and I don't come across like that.. I have no need for her anymore..
I noticed her face is really Ugly. She isn't all that, it's like she has mickey mouse face that is made of plastic and it can't smile or express itself. I didn't find anything there and I think this is the person she is today. Yes, I have realized what A fool I have been..

I really want to get back to work and go to Medical school which I love the medical field. I was the happy there. Yes, if it's what you want.. I still want to learn but also find security, but you have to remember there is no such thing as security...


I have also realzied that I have good friend who support me.. Jr. now has become deptendent and Joann wanted to ask me questions on philosphy... Well, it's great to know that they need me... I love Evit which she has the pretiest eyes... Do, you think you have a chance? I really don't know... She says hello, but is she really interested... I really would like to dance with her...

I have found a new family but are they crazy or what? Yes, I feel like am at the rancho when I am at there place... Yes, it is really nice but everyone lives there...

I need to get out of retirment...


Frank Martinez