Pily Emails. She wants me to teach her son the Electronics Business..

I received Pily email which she would like me to show her son the Electronic business..

Well, I can take him along... I was also told he was 17 years old. I didn't know that, but the question is who's kid is he? Is he her kid or her husbands kid? Well, I don't know..
If, he is lilys kid then she had him in 1988 which I was still working at Downey Toyota and I was still take auto courses.... I remember that time which I was realizing that there had to be something better. I have learned alot, but I still don't know anything..

Well, the good thing is that I actually have work experience which I spend alot of time figuring out how things work. I realized that this was developed when I was working in the mechanical field. I woul try one thing and try something else and narrow down the problem. These were my trouble shooting days. Yes, but that is how you fix things you know the network and then as long as you follow the network you will always find the problem. It's like a stream of water.. It is always flowing but when it gets stuck you have to find out why it's stuck..

Yesterday, I went to Little Tokyo which I was at the Garden and I noticed that the pond was off and everything was stagnated.... Well, that is the problem since the power is off the water just doesn't flow... You can see it in nature when something stops moving it dies..
Sharks also have to always be moving or they die... Life is gret because you move and you grow and isn't this all we have? Yes, you are right..

Well, lets show this kid what I know and do your best..
I can't believe I am 40 years today...

Sometimes, I wonder what if Lily would have come by here at my house and said hello?
I don't know, I am just happy she is alive and well. Yes, that is the most important thing for me... I will have to meet her husband so this wondering of who he might be is over...
Yes, lets meet this person and get this over with...

Life grows and changes and nothing stays the same..

I have grown these past two months because now I know where she is and I realized she never could complete me. I have found my own security with in me... But, as a friend who taught me this great lesson I will help her out.. My search for Frank Martinez has finally been complete... It feels great to know she is alive and well. Yes, this is the greatest gift...


I went to the Bodhi tree yesterday trying to see if I could find any Alan watts book out of print. Well, Nothing. I almost purchased om which I already own.. Well, that was good that Ididn't buy that..
Well this is really my reward when I go to the bodhi tree but I wasted the whole day by going there.. Well, the issue is that I have everything I need..

I feel complete today, now I can actually look at another women and have desire in the past I couldn't do this.. This is strang...
You have to remember that Lily was beutiful at one time and she was someone who would never talk to me. I know I had acne and that is what brought me down. I have grown and realized that I am o.k. I have always been o.k. Well, you can't hold that against her. She was a kid like me..

Look at the facts, felipe married his high school sweet heart and they are getting a divorce... What could I have offered Lily back then? Nothing.. That is true because you have to remember you had some reading issues that I forced my self to read the auto manauls which helped my reading.. I also realized that by reading he books they told you how everything works.... It was great to realize that I was the one who was in control and no one else.. Yes, this also explains my understanding of experience which I thought it was given to you, but it's actually done by doing it.. You learn by doing... This is all we have...

Lets keep growing and lets meet her husband and move on....

Frank Martinez