Lily didn't sound to good, she tried to avoid the questions...

I realized yesterday, that Lily didn't like my email.

Well, I have tried to be honest.. Yes, but I think she doesn't want to talk about that. but her favorite line, I don't remember that..
Well, what can you do..

I have my peace.. Yes, that has been the goal of all this. I finally seen her again and she is now my best friend but I still remember our moments, but they were small. We didn't like go out and stuff, we just hung out at school and that was it.. so, there was no hanging out and partying and stuff like that..

I don't think, I would be able to control her and that is not my job. I am glad Adam has her because that is his job now and not mine..

what was I thinking? Yea what were you thinking...

I always thought of her as good, no drinking and all this but reality sets in and you grow up. Yes, this is good for me because now I can see and now I understand.... I have been such a fool for all these years..

I am free now, what do I do now?

Take some risk and live again...

yes, its my time..