I emailed a bold email to Lily, I want her to forget me now..

I emailed Lily a stuck up email.

Yes, I know it sounded really concieted...
I first started out saying, I hope I didn't break any arms at the party.. As, if I am really a dangerious guy.. Well, I am, If I am pushed there..

I then go on to say, I was drinking with a lady. Shit frank what are you doing this is showing that you are to cool... Yea, that is the effect that I am looking for..

Then you go on to say that 1983 takes me back which I describe my quiting of drugs and changing my life, but again you are bragging again... Yes, but what I want is that she hats me so much that she wont think of me as the same.. yes, that is the goal..

I finally realized that I have won, but I don't want this used model... I am looking for a new model.. shit, what do you want Adams used Toyota for, I need a new Ferrari about 30 something that is what I am looking for...They are out there, all I have to do is find them..

Yes, it is true...

I was really scared when we were at the party that Lilys friend asked me if I loved lily, I said that was a diffrent time... Well, I yes it is true... Sure, I have feelings but after realizing and accepting the present and the past, I realized what I feel for her is love of a brother for a sister..
I don't ever think it will ever go beyond that.. Yes, this is true... I have also grown these last couple of months that today, I can do more and I am not stuck on that old programming..

I have grown and I thank her, but I know she has a family so she needs to care for it..
I also realized that this was nastalgia going back, but you have to remember my acne was a big issue back then... Yes, but today, I have the same thing but I am much more aware of it... It is comming back, but I have realized not to let it get to me..

I have been getting darker for some reason.. I thinkit's the sitting down in the big chair..
Yes, I thin that chair is for cruzing the internet and when I do work us ethis regualr chair..

I will always remember lily..

Now, what are you doing working with stanley?

Do, I really need this job? I have been cleaning parts and that is all I do... Shit, I have to move on from this, but again that is all I do all day...Well, He is trying to guid me and he has shown me some new ways of doing things and he has paid me... Shit Frank, realize his patients and take this into consideration.... Yes, but you have to take your time..

It's fun, I have a new friend, but lets finish up what I started... I need to start doing taxes and get my low voltage license... Lets not spend to much money, but keep learning..

4-6 Google News
6-7 Exercise
7-9:30 Starbucks read Books
9:30-10:30 Review the whole day and all work..
11-5 Stanley..

Yes, this schedual looks alot better which I have an extra hour to work and I can do more.. Yes, I can use this extra hour to write everything I have to do and also write out what I just read and I can read the news again to have a good idea of what is going on. I have to realize that I have to get in the habbit of being ready..