I Emailed Lily today because, I don't want to lose her..

I did it. I emailed Lily again..

Yes, I didn't email her last week which I didn't have time, but again, I did call, but she didn't answer..
It's strang that she answers when I call from Jose's place, but she doesn't answer it when it comes from me.. The issue is that we are friends and that is all..

I noticed that she gained some weight, but is that really important ? No, not really..

Well, Having her friendship is all I ever wanted..

I love her, but as a brother loves sister... I wish, I could fall in love with her again, but I know it can't happen,but I can love her as a sister and that is what I feel for her...

Yes, I love her as a sister.... Love changes, but I have to not get caught in this shit called love...I don't want to break my heart again... yes, I have grown and I am much better today..


How can you forget your first love?

Well, I just knowing she is o.k. makes my day...