Spent time with Pily....

I spent time with Pily..

I know she might not be thing and beautiful, but she loves me..
So, that is the main reason I stay with her.

I have found that Lily my first girlfriend because of her beuty she has so many problems.. She is always looking for the next guy who can save her from what ever hell she put herself in.

I have realized that having couple good friends is what is important... Yes, that is all you really have..
I have also learned that it's the content of the person that counts.. Yes, me in Pily have good talks about nothing.. Now that is nice.. If,you realize when you talk to lily my first girfriend she gets exited when I talk about my success or money... Is this what I have to look foward to, always making money for her.. Well, I know who she is...
I remember the 1983 transam which she found a guy with a better car.. She is still doing the same thing, but now it's 23 years later and she wants to leave her husband.. Well, I have no trans am but I do have a 1983 GMC van.. Now, that is the issue.. She is looking for someone to rescue her... I have realized that all I wanted from her is her friendship.. It's really nice talking to her and I have realized she has helped me over come alot of issues of the past..
I know that I am not good looking which I broke out with acne in high school, but the issue was that I was shy for 10 years, but when I saw her again.. I said, I will not live like that again. so, it was good for me to tell her the truth and walk away.. Yes, that was the goal.... I have grown today.... Yes, I am at a good place...
Yes, I know Pily will be with her depression the rest of her life, but at least she is there for me and I know she loves me... She is all I have today... It hurts but it's good to know she is there.

Well, Lily she has more drama and always looking over the fence if the grass is greener.. She will always do this.. If, she does this with adam don' t you think she would do this with me in couple of years... Of, course, you can't trust her...


I have moved on today and I have realized I have no need or want for her...


Yes, I am free...