I am Lucky... I saw Adam and Lily livng together.. I am free

I am Lucky...

I have finally realized that Lily has alot of issues that if I would have married her, I would be in hell today.

I am glad I told her that she broke my heart back in 1994. Yes, this was great because I set my limits... I wasn't doing much which I had Pily at the time. I wasn't going to lose Pily to live in hell for another ten years... She is bautiful which I know I will never be able to control her..

The other Day, Lily first husband wanted to talk to his son. Man, you should have seen Adam he rolled up his eyes.. Well, the issue was that this poor guy has to put up with this shit.. Well, then he said , she is crazy... Yes, she is, and I am free.. Thanks Adam, I would have been you if I didn't stand up to her...

Yes, I am free today...

I told Lily everything about how I felt about her and expressed all my feelings... This was great growth... Yes, this is the goal to my own self work.. I have been working on myself which things have been getting better...

It's funny, I thought I would still need to talk to her which I have come to realize that I always wanted her, but I never needed her.. Yes, this is somethng that I confussed... I thought if I had her I would be complete... How many times have you made this same mistake.. Many, many times before.. I remember my fiat I need it and I will be complete... Well, it's a false sense,but it's our ego... Yes, I have learned to step back and say, do I want this or need this... It's alot of want... yes, but I don't need..

So, I have grown... I have grown so much that I am at a much secure place today...

Yes, this has been the goal to everything... I am finally free..

I haven't seen her in 23 years which she said, I expected you to be married...So, that tells me that she had no interest... Yes, that is true, but I took this chance to clear some stuff off my plate.... Yes, this is great to find her again but realize she is only human...

I have been living a lie all this time, but you know reality sucks....


Yes, but today, I am able to realize that things are simple and that is all... I have no expectations for her... I have no need or want for her..

Shit, you have to be real, did you see those hands? Did, you see how tall she is and she looks like freak.... A oversized freak with those hands... I am free...

This has been the goal...

Yes, I am free...